Mum, another Christmas is over, another season of sadness and tears. I wish I could host a Christmas for my family the way we did. But I have no where to invite them all to, plus Sam really doesn't want to share her time with me. She wouldn't sit by me and even stood in Cheryl's kitchen when the only space was next to me. It breaks my heart. You are the only one I can tell. I love and miss you Mum xxx